I don't even know what to say. This is all just a huge misunderstanding.

For some reason these past few weeks have revealed to me an unknown side of my psyche. This hidden persona surfaces every night usually after my long and protracted search for contentment and validity--be it in my schoolwork, relationships, friends or personal growth--ends in complete and utter failure. If life is really this tapestry of sublime events supposedly culminating into my own personal Calvinistic plan, then so far I've only managed to accrue meaningless accidents and irreversible mess-ups. I need to work on being a better person.